Have you ever listened to a song that just physically makes your heart hurt? That's how I feel when I listen to "Breathe" by Sia. Of course, it could be the context in which I first heard the song that makes me feel that way (during the Six Feet Under series finale death sequence), but I really think it's just a painful song. It makes me think about time passing and people that I miss, and sometimes those are sad things.
I don't really consider myself a very sentimental person. Maybe I don't have a lot to be sentimental about, but looking back on high school and college doesn't really bring tears to my eyes. There are some people who would probably stay in those periods of life forever and a day if they could, but I was always ready to put them behind me. Sure, there were meaningful people and events, but I don't really have a desire to reconnect to the things that made me who I was then. I even get bothered sometimes by people who constantly want to keep in touch with old friends, even though they've got nothing in common anymore but the past. Maybe I'm just a hypocrite though, because I can think of two people whose friendships I dearly miss. And while I am reminiscing about the past with them, they could just as well be on the other end, wondering why I'd even bother. One of these people just became totally different and didn't like what I had to say about it. The other was a natural friend-magnet and eventually became too busy/popular. I think about them both often, especially while listening to heart-hurting songs.
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