Dreamweaver

Sometimes you have a dream in life that you hope will one day come true. Sometimes other people have that same dream. Sometimes you while away your days, not doing anything to get closer to having your dream come true. Sometimes that dream comes true for someone else who dreamed it. Sometimes you feel like your dream can't be your dream anymore because now that it's come true for someone else, it will never come true for you.

When in doubt, do a survey.

70 THINGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME

1. DO YOU SNORE?
no, but I do talk in my sleep.
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
a bit of both
3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
dying...no, wait. dying and not going to heaven.
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
I never really liked building things.
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
can't live with it, can't live without it
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
no. i'd rather chew on something that has a taste to it.
7.WERE YOU A CUTE Baby?
yes, but it was all downhill from there.
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
it better not be...
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
grey and darker grey
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?

yes, especially now that I have a shower radio

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
no way
12. HAVE ANY "SECRET" TALENTS?
i don't think i have any "unsecret" talents
13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
a beach with really clean sand and clear blue water
14. Do you think Jay Lenno is funny?
yes, but I prefer Letterman
15. CAN YOU SWIM?

uh-huh

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
multiple times.
17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
unfortunately, no.
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?
one...tahoo!...three.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
after watching the reno 911 drunk driving episode enough, yes
20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
unfortunately
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
no
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENER?
i use mechanical pencils, but if i have to sharpen, definitely electric
23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
.i would never do it, but I guess it's no worse than me eating a hamburger
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
yep, and it's in my present, too
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
sometimes.
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
the MMR vaccine
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
last night
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
anything's possible
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
mostly just the ones i see on TV
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled on a bagel with cheese
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
some are, but some brunettes are also dumb
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
wherever you left it
33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
3:20
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
it used to be caity spaghetti, but not so much anymore
35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
the vein in the chicken nugget i once got was
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
yesterday on the way home from work
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
neither. i hate taking the time.
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
if only...
39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
depends on who's kissing it!
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
i slept with the light on till i went to college. you be the judge.
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
reality TV, e-mail
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
creamy, if at all
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
yes. don't knock it till you try it.
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
not that i know of...
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
of course
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
very
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
plain old brown
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
overall, it's alright.
51. IS YOUR NAME ALAN?
if it was, the answer to 50 would be "no."
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
there's always those "women's intuition" moments, but i can't get in touch with your dead uncle, if that's what you're asking
53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
no
54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
used to play the flute, but not anymore
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY?
money? no.
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
i've tried, but i don't want to try, try again.
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
not really
58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?
occassionally one slips out
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
no, but that doesn't make it any less neat
60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
i'll go with julie and say that women are really man's best friend
61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
only under very specific circumstances
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
can you?
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
it's mild
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
gummy bears
66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?
i'm too lazy to worry about my nails
67. Do you wish you could live somewhere else?
if i could take a few things from here and move them to a different location, then yes, i do.
68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
i change the channel when commercials come on.
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
I used to, but i think i'm outgrowing it
70. FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?
he's not a band, but i do like brad paisley.

who in the what now?

I tend to use this blog to point out absurdities found in the Hollywood circle or other types of media. This post is no different. I was watching Access Hollywood today, and they had a bit on the perfect sunglasses for each face shape. There were rimless sunglasses for heart-shaped faces, aviators for round faces, but the real kicker was what they suggested for the "perfect" oval-shaped face. They showed a model wearing a pair of big black sunglasses like the ones that the Blues Brothers wore, not much different from the ones you could get at Pizza Hut in the late '80s (only not neon colored). They made a statement something along the lines of, "These glasses are the hottest new trend. Lots of stars are wearing them, like Joaquin Phoenix in 'Walk the Line.'" Um...have they ever see "Walk the Line?" Do they know it takes place in the '60s?? I would hardly use a star wearing sunglasses for a part in a movie set 40 years ago as an example for the hottest new trend. That's stretching it just a little bit, don't you think?

Book Review

Currently reading: Memoirs of a Geisha

Current insightful quote from Memoirs of a Geisha: "Grief is a most peculiar thing; we're so helpless in the face of it. It's like a window that will simply open of its own accord. The room grows cold, and we can do nothing but shiver. But it opens a little less each time, and a little less; and one day we wonder what has become of it."

I'm not much of a reader, so it took me a while to get into this book, but I'm about 3/4 of the way through it now, and I'm really enjoying it. I'm looking forward to seeing the movie.

Bad Boys

All my life, I've played by the rules. Well, all my life minus one year of being influenced by a bad friend. Either way, I've spent the majority of my time here abiding by seatbelt laws, school handbooks, and company policies. I'm not sure why I've always been such an upright citizen, but I have a hunch that it stems from my fear of being punished for doing wrong, rather than some kind of moral righteousness. I don't get a rush of adrenaline from doing something "bad," nor do I feel my life is dull or boring. I like the secure feeling of being a goody two-shoes. I'm not hiding an extramarital affair or embezzling funds from my thriving employer, and I wouldn't dare take two from the "have one" jar of free samples. Not having to worry about getting caught doing something I shouldn't be is great, but I find myself getting annoyed with those people who do decide to walk the line and do a little tango with law enforcement, if you will.

My first reaction to this feeling is guilt, because maybe I'm jealous of these risk takers. But as I have already mentioned, I like playing it on the safe side. I wouldn't say I'm jealous of the girl who consistently stays overtime at work when we've been told numerous times that our time punches shouldn't exceed 40 hours a week. I think it's more of a itchy little annoying feeling that says, "Why would this person blatantly ignore the rules?" Sure, everyone is entitled to decide for his or herself what regulations to live by, but I am irked nonetheless. It's the person who wears black shoes to graduation, when we were only "allowed" to wear white. It's someone who rolls through every stop sign they come to on the road of life. Rule breaking, to me, is just a sign of lack of respect for the higher authority in whatever situation, and possibly a bit of carelessness at listening to the rules in the first place. Maybe you are a rule breaker and proud of it. I've just never understood defiant attitudes, and I'm guessing that there's a chance I won't fully understand it until I've got teenagers of my own.